Gana Bollywood Ishtyle

Well to start with I must say that I'm really proud to part this transition that happened over last two decades in bollywood. I can still feel the evergreen songs rining in my ears in the early mornin of sundays through rangoli and every wednesday through chitrahar. But then came a very slow period specially the late eightties and the early nineties. There were just songs made to rhyme and lacked the punch or the sweet essence. Some collections in this era also cannot be forgotten like Ashiqi. But then other than a seleted few the whole music was rely silent when there were no experiments with music. Then suddenly came a magician in music industry who single handedly changed the whole outlook of the music industry. And almost two decade after he entered people have shed all the fear and started to experiment with lyrics music and instruments. Now we have songs foucssed on geners and not family occassions. Recently lots of interesting n intiguing music have been released. Not all were like by every1 but then there are a lot of geners and people of diff segments like diff geners.The fussion work done with western and indian instruments have been producing phenomenal effect on the music. Its more interesting to hear a sitar rpgo when ur listening to a rock band. Since past 3 years there have been reality shows where performers are asked to prepare impromtu peace of there work and they have produced a realy awsm work I must say. Be it RockOn or CokeStudio this genere or music has touched the hearts of most of the people and they have greeted this genere really well. Kudos to music industry.. way to go..

Tushar

Just another saturday...

Had a hectic week loads of processing done lots of reports generated for database maintenance. Worked more than 12hrs per day this week. Deserve a weeken like a roller coaster. Had futball in the mornin followed by a short guitar session augmented by a double omlet n tea. Then Hangover II followed by Chiken in KFC. Then back to guitar session after a siesta. Go to tollygunj in search of a flat. Land up at frns place to play pool n then a hooka session. Finally another session of guitar n den somethin to munch on. End the day with desert. Now dat sounds like a weeken. Hang on Sunday is still awating.


Tushar

cudnt think of

I spend a lot of my time on net trying to learn something new everyday. I watch movies very often n i like to repeat the movies a lot of times if i like dem. I dono much about psychology but I have a lot of things running in my head all the time and I have a tendency to try n finish things as soon as I can. I want to spend much of time doing something or the other so that I dont have time to sit n think about anything n I fear dat there is sm thgt that I want to escape. I live my life as it comes n never think of hw to do things today to make my future better. I always do wt I want to the way I want to. yes there are a lot of things that I have to cut on cause of my huge credit bills n sm cause I do end up hurting myself. I have always been emotional and never hurt sm1 intentionally. I like to live life king size. I never like to say I wish. I always take my shot to wtever opportunity comes my way. But m nt dat lucky always. I always liked the MagicMoments of my life. Funny Im over all those things now but still see flashes of her every now n den I still hunt her in crowd pointlessly. Seriously I dont get attracted to most of the beauties ogled by frns. Dont get me wrong dere dude. I always m attracted to faces which have resemblance to her. I know this is crazy but then this is how things are right now. I do not know what is stored fr me in future but I want to live in my present. I dono how will I get over the fear of being alone. I want to be with sm1 soon ere I turn into a total phanatic.


Tushar

MagicMoments

I miss being loved and cared by someone. Yes its so true that for the 1st time in life I feel so free. I am working on some of my favourite technologies but the physical touch of sm1 can be replaced by some niche technology. This has been a really good journey since last few months. I have been to places and took some very strong decisions in life but there has always been a weaker side to those decisions. I dont know why cant I fall for sm1. Not that there are no opportunities but then I always try to find a familiar face. I do not know when or how will I get out of this finally. I am in a very strong position now but I will lie to myself if I say that I have forgotten her. It so happens that I am walking out of office and suddenly it started raining and I recolleted that it was the same weather some day when we were together. There are so many moments and all so special that it is virtually impossible to forget everything. But I really regret the moment I met or interacted with her. When I first saw her and fell in LUV with her. Had I not seen her had I not interacted with her life would have been so gracefull and so easy to live. I know my exile is towards and end but in this journey I lost some of my most enjoyable years.


Tushar

In Control of Life!!!

Finally I think I m getting some where in my life. I have a goal and an aim. Funny that being lonely I m able focus more. Now I have time to thibk about myself and analyse what are my priorites and demands in life. Life was not so easy sometime back when I had friends with me who could help me go forward in this direction. I guess I have over come the fear by facing it without any support. I did take the step forward and faced all the hurdles that came in the path. This was really a long test and a very important learning experience of my life. My future is still in shades of dark but then I have decided which path to take. I do not know what will happen next or what will be the end result but then I know I am not afraid of it. I m in full control of my life.



Tushar

Sometimes I'm so BLANK...

Sometimes I am so blank that I cant read myself. I cant think of anything around me. I just want to hold on to some one who I used to when things were different. I get sick to think of the reality now. Things change so fast and we move on so easily. We dont even have time to go back in mind and think of the time we used to spend together. I can still remember her eyes so full of enery so full of excitement there was some magic sparks in them. Her eyes told so many things at a time and yet kept so many things disclosed. When she closed her eyes she looked like cherubin. Oh I wished so much to hold her in my arms and stop the time line forever.


Tushar

Kolkata will be Calcutta

Things are changing fast in and round the globe. All are tyring to marvell in everything they know. Kolkata is not far from the truth and I have been able to judge this as I shifted from a very dynamic city so I could see things slowing down. I lived in Mumbai for around two years and thought I was born fr the city only to realise that one should have money to enjoy in Mumbai. Due to some family issues I had to move down to Kol. I had been in the project which was driven from mumbai and hence could feel the same amount of work load and people aorund me were astonished to see me work for inhuman number of hours. The project ended and I moved to an aoount which was driven from kolkata. Here I realised that people in Kolkata also believed in the statement 'Work is GOD!!!'. The only difference is that people here are less religious. People talk about escalations as soon as they enter the office and after a couple of mins they only talk about food and flats. People here asre so obsessed with Bengal and the people of Bengal even when they talk about Sachin he is compared with Ganguly. They cannot except any non-bengali doing something good in a field if there is a bengali nomination. Lunch and tea time is the time which they lesiure the most. People here in IT are not driven by knowlege but are driven by politics to an extent that is rely not imaginable. People here are chosen to work on project not by knowlege but by the amount of experience they have and the kinda contact they haev. They still want to go ahead of all in words but they talk about it so much they do not acutally have the time to implement it. Freshers joining the team miss the compition for a few days but later take this as a the system. They too join the gossip that goes around and forget the sole reason for their working in a dynamic industry. The view I have is related to IT itself but I think the other fields will not be an exception to it.

Tushar